secret lentil clothing: July 2016

Tuesday, July 26

Before and After, or A Stitch Before Dyeing (booooooo)

secret lentil linen brooches, before and after hand dyeing

I've been making these pins out of layers and layers of linen ... sewing them with my machine plus adding some rough hand-stitching ... and sometimes using rubber stamps that I've carved over the years. This is what they look like all raw and white (and sometimes baby aspirin orange and pink - I had scraps to use up!) and then, poof — post hand-dyeing.

it's okay: hand dyed linen brooch from secret lentil

it's okay: purple linen brooch
with fringe on top

winged skull hand dyed linen brooch from secret lentil

linen brooch with hand stitching
and winged skull

it's okay: purple linen brooch

pushing: hand dyed scarab beetle linen brooch from secret lentil

pushing — linen brooch with
scarab beetle and dung ball

Sunday, July 3

it's okay: water, fire and the anagama collection

Here's what happened to me in May: I got sick. Not life and death sick, but I couldn't eat for five days sick. And then late on the fifth day, when food seemed like something almost worth considering, I was so wiped out that I did something thoughtless — well actually, stupid (ummm, maybe squint while you read this next part) — and I spilled boiling pasta water on my feet. Gah! I know.

I'm fine now — really — though foot modeling is definitely off my career list. But I ended up spending a few weeks at home. If you are a self-employed person I know your soul is cringing because you know what that means. If you are a self-employed artist, you are double extra cringing. Your eyes may even be watering. We do not spend three weeks at home. It's unheard of.

Here's the thing: it was the best thing that's happened to me in years. You know how people always tell you to walk away from your creative work when you're stuck? I'm really bad at that. I had to be knocked on my ass instead. I felt ill enough that All Things Secret Lentil got flung clear out of my head. I didn't care about it. I almost forgot what it was. That is a luxury I cannot afford under normal circumstances. I live, breathe and sleep Secret Lentil, for better and worse. I go to sleep thinking about responsive newsletter formats and wake up thinking about a way I may be able cut a certain hip angle. In between, I dream about color combinations.

So I ended up on an extended Zen couch retreat. I was able to use the distance I felt to turn and face my work freshly and explore how to newly embrace it. I emerged with an intense desire to return to it in a different way, possessed with a level of grounded clarity that has no room for doubt. What I wanted: to cull some aspects that have been dragging me down energetically, to embrace some new techniques, to draw on some of my old work that still sparks with magic for me, to focus the materials I use and to build a new studio flow that better suits my curiosity and habits and passions. And I thought a lot about beauty, and how I just want to make things that express beauty, in whatever odd or lovely (or raw or ugly!) way that means for me.

That's where this work, the anagama collection, came from. It's just the start of this new thing. An anagama kiln is an ancient style of Japanese wood-fired kiln for ceramics. I only know about them from stalking my cyber-friend Lavinia Hanachiuc. I'm always enamored with her artist brain and her ever-changing body of work. I like to look at ceramic artists in general for inspiration. (Most recent favorite: Janaki Larsen - or find her here on Instagram) Something about the hand-building of their work strikes a resonance with my own process, though I've always thought of them as higher-level risk takers since they put all that effort into making before they risk it all in fire ... until now. Now I'm working almost exclusively in white fabrics then hand-dyeing the completed garment. I'm smitten with handling them during their bisque-like rawness, while I lay the groundwork with line, shape and texture that will be transformed by that final dye-firing step. Enjoy:

(You can click on the first one then scroll through from there if you want.)